New goal: dominate ten of the k's. |
I've been doing the best I can to stay on top of my marathon training, but frankly, it just hasn't been going that well. I think this first hit me when I realized I was supposed to run 10 miles three days after I moved to Chicago. Moving is exhausting, yo! And so is running 10 miles! Anyway, I could make a million excuses, but the fact is this: it's just not the right time to do this. I've known this subconsciously for a while, but tonight is the first time I actually admitted it out loud.
I do think that I could do it, or at least give it a shot, but frankly I don't want to. I want to do my first marathon when I'm excited about it (and I mean IT, not just being done with it), when I have the time and energy to devote to it, and the confidence that I can do it and do it strongly and without the risk of injury. Ultimately, I want to find bright spots in the process, and right now, it feels like a massive pressure-system (I think I might watch too much Weather Channel) hanging over my head.
I probably won't be this fast. Probably. |
Anyway, most of you who know me know I'm a planner. And if you don't know that about me, you probably figured it out with that big list over there to the right, oh and that paragraph right above here. So it's disappointing to have had a plan that needs...reformatting. But ultimately, being a grown up is as much about flexibility, compromise and, maybe most importantly, knowing my own limits as it is about setting goals. The immense sense of relief I feel having amended my plans means I know I did the right thing for me.
And luckily, I've done a lot already, and there's plenty of time to get the rest done. So maybe 30 can be the start line, and not the finish.
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